Wednesday, February 01, 2012
I have nothing to say to you Except that I'm sorry
Even though the story played out long ago
This guilt is the star of its own show
The only thing I did wrong was not standing up for myself enough
Letting the crowd drown me out
Wither away by the sound of my own voice
I should have pushed back when pushed
And made a way for myself
No matter how far back I step
I can't see the end of this picture
Till my back touched the wall
I realized, the fact is, I don't understand anyone at all.
These kind of things just pop up
It's so random
I was doing maths and suddenly the first sentence popped up in my head
So I wrote it down
And I just kept writing for another 10 minutes or so
And then I realized I'm supposed to be doing maths and I need to get back to it right away but I end up doing this as you can see haha
If only I'm good at drawing, then I can draw out the scenarios floating around in my head
I like that writing begins from a picture in your head
I don't know how true this is for others but it's the case for me most of the time
excuse me :X
11:42:00 AM
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
I have this feeling like I did something wrong. But I have no idea what is it. I didn't even do anything. So why is it happening again. What am I supposed to do. It's like a quiz I can never get the right answer to. I've think of every possible way I can think of to swerve past the mistakes but it's never right. It's not so much that this is happening, but more of because this seems to like to keep on replaying. I don't know what else to say. I have no words now.
excuse me :X
9:56:00 PM
Friday, January 20, 2012
Yes I may be hindering you
Though I hope not
Now I've come to see
It is not entirely impossible
I do not ever want to be the person who stands at the door, blocking your way
Shards of glass and pieces of ruins on the floor
I'll help clear them up
I'll even lay a long grand carpet out for you
So please walk on through.
excuse me :X
12:16:00 PM
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
thoughts for the past week. just mumbo jumbo.
I commend your decency. I'm glad I got to catch a glimpse of that.
Is this the last straw? I hope it is. It's better for me. Because I don't have to deal with it anymore. And look at the bigger picture. Look at what will really matter in the end. All of these will soon be forgotten. And people won't remember. Selective memory.
I will not lose sight of it anymore. What is the purpose of it all.
The picture got a bit fuzzy back then
It's starting to become clear again
"Next time I'll be braver. I'll be my own savior"
Adele-turning tables
my dad told me something yesterday morning. i will never forget what he said to me and i will do what he told me. i never expected to hear that from him. the timing was almost impeccable, almost as though he knew that was what i needed to hear. walking around with so many thoughts in my head but never told anyone, to hear that from him, i'm just really glad.
excuse me :X
2:55:00 PM
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
excuse me :X
10:00:00 PM
Thursday, December 29, 2011
I just got back from my Penang trip with borats yesterday. it was very fun! we mostly shopped and walked around, though we didn't have time to finish exploring. one of the highlights was the trishaw ride. i thought it was my first time riding it but according to my mum, i've rode it before when i was younger. i have no memory of that. haha. but the trishaw ride was very fun! it's like so close to the cars and the people walking on the roads. i feel like it's an theme park ride. haha. the weather was very nice also when we rode the trishaws. though it's not very good for the uncles who are mostly quite old already. how cool will it be if everyone rode in trishaws and the the person cycling and the person on the trishaw take turns. then can just travel in trishaws already. haha. we also did the parasailing and jet skiing. okay these 2 are really my first times. it was really fun and awesome. i didn't dare to drive the jet ski for the fear that it might topple but nas wanted it to topple. haha. i think i wouldn't have as much fun if i drove it because sitting behind a mad woman driving on a jet ski is really really fun to the max. hahaha. one of the things we didn't get to do was the horse riding. not meant to ride it this time but maybe next time. we also went for the foo massage. at least nas and jq did. it was really interesting listening to how he could tell the problems from foot massage. we also ate at the revolving restaurant which was very cool. the food there was also super nice. how cool if the speed of revolving can be controlled. then can go faster or slower as we pleased. so fun uh! hahaha. i have the intention of buying a lot of things but in the end i didn't buy much because i find there isn't much to buy. a lot of the money was spent on taxi. other stuff we did were going up the penang hill and going to the temple. the sea breeze on the penang hill was super duper nice. very nice to run in the morning. the temple had the biggest statue of buddha(? i'm not sure is it the correct term/character) i've ever seen. it was amazing. there was also the night market and seafood dinner. i used to write as many details about trips or outings as possible but i can't remember all of them now. i will rely on the tons of photos we took to help me remember. haha. overall, it was my first time travelling with my friends and it was very fun! i felt i had 'jet lag' from 10 hour bus ride hahaha! it was a fantastic experience and i loved the trip!
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i'm flying off to beijing tomorrow with my family. excited about the negative degrees! hope it snows then can have snowball fight with my bros and build snowman. haha. i think this is the first time our entire tour group is only made up of my family and relatives. and i'll bring laptop over in case i have to bid for my modules in china. haha. this holiday is quite awesome because im not in sg for both christmas and new year's. yay! and so many firsts. :))))))))))
excuse me :X
2:54:00 PM
Thursday, December 22, 2011
I can't tell myself enough how enough is enough. The word 'enough' must mean something to me. That's where I need to get. 'enough is enough' 2 'enough-fe-ss' but I still don't get it. I don't get why I don't get it.
excuse me :X
1:17:00 AM
