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Friday, March 31, 2006

she

she.is.staring.
at.what?.you.ask.
nobody.knows.

she.is.moving.her.gaze.
to.what?.you.ask.
nobody.knows.

she.closed.her.eyes.
why?.you.ask
nobody.knows.

why.doesn't.anybody.know?.
you.ask.
you.turned.

she's.gone.
where'd.she.go?.you.ask.
i.smiled.

excuse me :X
6:49:00 PM

Thursday, March 30, 2006

day

::learning got moustache

:: blue india

::i'm still insane

''qouted by suriyani''

excuse me :X
10:34:00 PM

Sunday, March 26, 2006

我不明白

为什么会这样子呢？

请告诉我。

我不明白。

我有什么问题了吗？

有的话就直说吧。

我会比较舒服一点。

会吗？

我不知道。

我真的不知道。

我真的不想这样。

太浪费了。

我受够了。

还以为会比较好。

原来只是

自己骗自己吧了。

我应该怎么做？

还是什么都不做？

我不知道。

我只知道我不像想在这样下去了。

你知道吗？

i guess not.

excuse me :X
7:07:00 PM

Saturday, March 25, 2006

on my own

there are 2 worlds
separated by a huge wall
there is a door
its locked

one by one
the chosen ones
given their keys
they proceed through

here i am
looking around
i frowned: i don't do this
this is not where i belong

i know the truth
some things just don't happen
left out
alienated

im stuck
i can't get out
i feel so wasted
i can't be what i am

im groom this way
it can't be helped
staring at the door
its still closed

it's clear in my head
im screaming for something
i look up
it's still dark

i made a hole
i peered through it
then i pound my heart
i curled up crying

the door opened
a light slit through
i kept my head low
i know it's not for me

im forced
faking everything
lying to myself
self-deluded

i hear it
i can't take it
i screamed
i choked

i don't feel better
i stared
it won't budge,
i figured

maybe
it's gonna be this way
won't let that happen
it will change

[[i tt it'd be better. it's not]]

excuse me :X
2:42:00 PM

Friday, March 24, 2006

!@#$%^&*()_+

its been 4 days since i blogged rite? hahah...gd gd...

damn sian i duno y...oways so sian 1...y leh? enlighten me....=p

haiya...duno whether to go or not...i feel like boning cuz i din practice...lol...

im reli pathetic loz...stil havent completed my games....boohoo...

bro ask me to watch gundam seed so i watch lo....actuali quite nice leh....haha...=) after watching stil need to help him copy cd cuz the cd from his fren 1...i haf 2 boxes of gundam seed cds in front of me rite now....how long am i gonna take?hmmm...

ohya...got my pay today...$15 bucks only cuz i only work for 5 hrs ma....

tmr got appointment...the x-rays results will be out...i hope there's sumtin wrong n i get treated...haha...

off to play f.e.a.r now...

be seein' ya!!

excuse me :X
7:12:00 PM

Monday, March 20, 2006

1st day of skl

siian sian siiiiaaaannnn!!!!!!

skl is so boring!!

i see the teacher i wanna slp!!

anywayz...i'll try to do sumtin useful today....like....eyy.....i duno leh...

im getting lazy to blog le...haha...

nth much happen today...

its the same ol' same ol'

haiya...i read my own blog oso sian....

go play game la!!

be seein' ya!!!

excuse me :X
4:46:00 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006

argh!!

!!!!!

qi xi wo le!!!

last day of skl holiday i still haf not completed my hw!!!

worst of all!!! im so darn damn freakin' *^&#$*$%%@&(#&

haha...anywayz i'd rather go play game than blog here...teehee...

today is the same la...go guzheng lesson...wah today teacher so fierce man, like keep scolding the other student...haiz...

be seein' ya!!

excuse me :X
5:15:00 PM

Saturday, March 18, 2006

sat

haha...it's been 2 days since my birthday!!!

im 14!!

haha...today got no CO..so hapy..hehe...

so sian at hme...wanna play game oso cannot cuz i still got so many hw to finish....turn left turn right oso got so much hw piled up....

anywayz...i can't waste time blogging again...i gotta finish up all of them by today lor n tmr need to do that damn ipw!!!grrr!!! =(

be seein' ya!!

excuse me :X
2:51:00 PM

Thursday, March 16, 2006

MY BIRTHDAY!!!

woohoo!!!

TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!HAHAHA!!!

got up n for the 1st time ever, i felt good in the morning...not grumpy or tired....maybe it bcuz it's my birthday!!!haha!!!=)

the 1st thing i did was to check out the newspaper on wat movies there is to watch. i decided that i wanna watch cry_wolf and yours, mine & ours so my n my big bro went to watch cry wolf at the 12.15pm slot then yours, mine & ours at 2.30pm slot.( my 2nd bro cudn't make it cuz he need to go to skl...aww...so sad...)

i asked my bro to leave by 11.30am. he tot i told him to bathe at 11.30am so he bathed at 11.30am...lol....then we left the house at 11.50am...we're late....then at the bus stop i keep saying: u see la....we're gonna be late...everytime haf to rush 1.then my bro keep saying: good....where's the challenge if there is no rushing? -.-"

so in the end, as i expected, we're late...by a bit...so it din reli matter...i gotta tell u...it was pathetic...in the cinema, onli my n my bro n another family watching cry wolf...lol....the movie was not that good. the only reason i wanted to watch it is bcuz i tot it would be bloody....haha....but actuali, nobody died....haiz....

the movie was only 1hr plus long....the movie ended at around 1 plus then we go buy the 2.30pm ticket for yours, mine & ours. while waiting for the movie to start, me n my big bro went to the arcade n he continued his mariokart....the game was fun n evil...haha....then by around 2.25pm we go n watch the movie. this movie was better. it was funnier n crazy....imagine having 18 brothers n sisiters!!! it might be fun!!! hahaz....x)

then after that we went to play arcade. both of us r broke now....boo....we played basketball...twice!! then play...i forgot wat's that call but its sumtin like street fighter....n then go play bishi bashi...cool!! then still got time crisis, virtual cops? n daytona usa....muahaha....=D

then call my parents to come over n eat sakae sushi together....we waited for very long lor....i called my mom to tell her i wanted to eat sakae sushi 2nite then she say she juz come over, no need to go home then come again. then my dad tot muz wait for mom to go back 1st then he waited at home. so i called again n my 2nd bro told me they're still at home. -.-" so i asked them to come quick cuz my mom oreadi reach....if u dun understand this part, dun blame me....cuz i duno how to explain it anyway...

anywayz....by the time they reached there, it was quite late oreadi n sakae sushi was packed with ppl liao....but we still got place...the variety was not a lot cuz its so late liao...i guess most of it got eaten up by the earlier customers... :(

i tot since i suggested going to sakae sushi, my mom wud not buy me cake le but guess wat? she still went to some shop n bought us 3 ( my bros n i) 3 small pieces of chocolate mint cake!!!wooh!!! i enjoyed my dinner at sakae sushi though....(=

then after that my mom wanted to rush home to watch da chang jing but my big bro wanted to challenge my 2nd bro to bishi bashi so we asked our parents to go home 1st then we later then go home lo....

n again, we go to the arcade n spent some more....no!!! my money!!! but @ least my 2nd bro agreed to help me pay this time...haha....im a flop man....i cud not even win my 2nd bro...it's pathetic i dun even wanna say it...haha....my 2nd bro got hooked on bishi bashi...hahaz....n when he lost, he kept screaming like a little girl....HAHAHA~!!!

when we finali came out of the arcade, the shopping mall like so empty...all the shops close le...so quiet....

when i reached home, i found a bleach clock placed nicely on my table....i knew it at once hu is was from...this person knows im bleach' crazy n hasn't bought me a bday present yet....it is none other than my 2nd bro!!! i kinda feel bad about saying him havent even buy my bday present yet when we're at the mall....when i keep pestering him...he juz smiled n said nth....=) my big bro got me a fuzzy cute white hamster stuff toy...did i mention that? =D

so overall...i had the most wonderful day ever!!! i get to spend the whole day with my big bro!!! that's 1 of my wish if u read my blog carefully...=) tho we're both broke now.....but we had an enjoyable day!!! im so happy that my bros are celebrating my birthday with me!!! XD XD XD

ooooh...it's almost 12am le....30 more minutes until my birthday is over....boo... ystr me n lao pok~ counting down to my birthday....today im counting down to the end of my birthday...haha...now...gimme a minute n enjoy the last moments of my birthday...haha...=)

ooookay... im done....oh...wait...before i go....i juz wanna thank my bros for their time!!! THANKS!!! n oso my frens hu smsed me to wish me a happy birthday like: valerie! you jing! hui ting! joanne! myla! eunice! n suriyani! huey fen!(msn) mandy! yan ngee! ( tagboard)THANKS!!! =D =D

did i miss out anybody? =p

well, dat's all folks!!

be seein' ya!!

excuse me :X
11:00:00 PM

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

wahaha

guess wat?=)

1 MORE DAY TO MY BIRTHDAY LE!!!

wahaha.....

i juz found out, during skl days i blog @nite. but during the holidays i blog in the morning. hmm...i tink i noe y....cuz in the morning, when im still deciding wat to do, i go blog 1st lo....haha...xp

dun feel like blogging 2day....=(

be seein' ya!! (=

excuse me :X
11:26:00 AM

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

no title

hey hey...

ystrday i got my bday present frm atika n suriyani!! when i 1st got it, i tot it was a glove or scarf or sum fabric stuff cuz it felt soft n flexible....when i reached hme n opened it up, i was so so so hapi cuz they got me a pencil case. not juz any pencil case but a pencil case with lame words on it. the words on it were so lame tat i loved it!!!

ystrday morning went to fei yue centre to help out. my group was to clean the fitness area. *yawn* but after cleaning, they provide us with machicken burger n coke. that's better....haha....

then later go siok hwee parents factory work. we fold n paste brochures for so so so so so long. my arms were gonna break. im aching all over....maybe im reli turning old....hmm...haha....so sianz lor...doing the same thing for so long....eyes got blurry, arms n back aching cuz im not used to doing this type of job....but got experience....so its ok....=p

after working go westmall eat...i m the extra 1...the rest all eat yang tau fu onli i eat mee rebus....the mee rebus was so damn freakin' spicy that my eyes, nose n mouth turned very red...i tink i look like i juz cried...haha...i was tinkin: after working so hard, its time to enjoy a meal...who wud've tot the meal was even worse....-.-"

then got hme very late n the 1st thing is said to my mom was: mommy!! ni kan ni de nv er(daughter) zai wai tou shou le duo shao ku!! haha....my mom was like: =.=" then later watched DW then go hit the sack....

today got up then my 2nd bro asked me to help me to iron his uniform cuz he need to go cook....so i ironed for him since he seems to be in a rush. after ironing i went to the kitchen. he was cooking hotdogs. when he wanted to pei fan with hotdog i told him got bread then he said: ehh...bread n hotog n chilli is better!! so he go add lot lot chilli to his hotdog bread n it turned out to be to spicy for him...guess wat he did....he went to wash the chilli away under tap water.... -.-""""""""""""""" then the bread became soggy....u shud've seen it...it was dripping with water n he went to eat it anyway....when he was almost done with the bread, he said: eeee....too soggy liao...then he juz threw the remaining bread away n ate the remaining hotdog...

then i ask him y he was in a rush, he said he got a dental appointment at 10.40am n it was 10.10am liao....he needs 40min to reach skl....hahaha....serve him rite....then he said: nvm la...i juz tell the dentist i cudn't find her trailer....yeah rite....when i got out of the kitchen, he was ironing he pe shirt. i ask him y he was ironing his pe shirt then he say cuz he wana wear this ma....[huh?] then y u ask me to help u iron ur uniform...his ans was: i juz realized wearing pe shirt is better than uniform...[argh!!!!] n he onli left hse at 10.20am....i hope the dentist will help me smack him....muahaha....

in conclusion, now i noe im not alone. noe y? cuz im not the only crazy person in my home anymore...hahaz....=)

y am i writing abt my 2nd bro? cuz i got nth to write le n i wanna let the whole world noe he's juz as crazy as me!! i haf always suspected we're tong lei de....muahaha....

today actuali suppose to go out with es 1 but got 1 sprained his ankle, the other mother dun allow, the other go china, the other can't make up her mind then left 2...so pathetic...in the end postpone to gd fri lo....=(

soooooo....here i am....at hme....in my room....computer in front of me...hw all dumped around me....

be seein' ya!! =p

excuse me :X
10:20:00 AM

Sunday, March 12, 2006

siianzzzz~~

today like shite like that...

got nth to do...i ran out of pens... my damn black pen betray me...duno why....it bcame a penknife le...when i wan to write, it cuts the paper =.=" haf u heard of that ? pen cutting paper?!! lame shite.... ask that lao pok gongg crazy to throw me a pen she dun wan....i bet she's a lousy thrower...ssshh....=p

got no guzheng lesson today cuz teacher say yesterday count as lesson liao...urhuh...-.-"

then so siian....can't do hw, got no lesson....

aha!! i tink i need to start playing F.E.A.R now or else i'll never complete it....i very weird 1 lehz...the game got ghost la then i not scared by the ghost....rather by the humans( summore my teamates)....cannot get lamer than this....got 1 time a human came up to my face then i gave a lil' shriek...my bro was beside me then...then he got that weird face n say: like that u oso scared? u not scared of ghost u scared of human?hahaz....

ren sia ren hui sia si ren u noe?=p

anywayz....i reli reli reli need to start playing now....gotta go....hope i dun get scared by that damn human again...muahaha...n warning: i may bcum weird tmr cuz of this game...hahaz...x)

be seein' ya!! =)

excuse me :X
4:42:00 PM

Saturday, March 11, 2006

sat sat sat

today ar....went to see the doctor early in the morning....

my mother la...say wat wanna be the first dere....lol...n wat's more? she suggest that we walk there?!!! boy, do i haf a hell of a mother!! actauli it's the polyclinic that's nearby la...only a few stops away but i dun like walking in the morning....so tired....

anywayz....i was looking up in the sky...not bright enuff then i tot i'll reli be the first there....when i reach there....i saw a queue lining up to register liao lor!!!damn!!! n the registration counter wasn't even open yet!! lol!! then my very good mother ask me to stand n wait in the queue while she sits down!!! hurh?!!

i dun reli like polyclinics lar cuz oways haf to wait very looong!!! n so ma fan lor!!! lucky this time i got room 52 n not 41 cuz the doctor in room 41 sux lor....i say i got problem he say i dun haf..... -.-"

then my very "______" mother da bao breakfast there n eat....she say eat while waiting for the doctor saves a lot of time!! she like pinic there lor....so me n my mom ate her da bao-ed breakfast there....look so stupid lor...lol...

i like the doctor this time round cuz when i told her my problem....at least she tried to help me....unlike....hai...dun wanna say la...she told me to go zhao x-ray.....then i go down n waited again to get x-rayed....wah....tell u ah....the nurse hu called me in is like...i wana whack her la...she pronounce my name like shit like that....so awful lor...i tot she calling sumbody else....

i didn't noe taking x-ray was so easy lor....u juz put the part u wanna zhao on sum platform then shine light on that part, go into a room press 1 button then done!!! doesn't even take long!! sua gu!!!

then go pharmacy collecy medicine....wah...this part makes me the most pissed lor....the staff like all toking n nvr see us....we waited for so long then they finali decided to call our number..... -.-" then my mom was late for work...she suppose to leave latest by 9am. if the ppl were to noticed us earlier n got our medicine earlier then my mom will not be late liao lor....

haha...tok so much still havent tell u all wat sickness i got...haha....guess urself lor....

then afternoon got performance....ahh....actuali it's not so of a performance la....it's juz like exhibition...not on stage....but still...i forgot practically all the notes n my teacher like: haiyo...wat happened to u? u got practice or not? i say i got but i dun tink she believe me la...always like that 1....u practice so much but at the moment evrythin juz went blank....

while playing n forgetting the notes...i kept looking beside me cuz im so so so so so lost....i try to catch up but im too lost to catch up....so i juz put my hand there n did nth....my teacher keep looking at me...=( lucky not stage or that'll be even worse...i first row summore lor...imagine all those eyes looking at u n u did nth but haf all those very-obvious questions marks ?????? around ur head....that's gotta be embarrassing....totally....

today i tuo pi lor cuz i wear my mom black shoe...cuz we're suppose to wear those kind of black shoe....i duno how to describe....i was limping lor....then i tink the ppl there think im lame as in crippled or sumtin n cannot walk properly....lol.... the teacher told me to wear make up but lucky i didn't. if i did, i wud look the stupidest there cuz almost nobody wore make up...lucky i duno how to wear n my mom was working so she cudn't help me....i cudn't possibly ask my brothers rite? if they noe....i'd disown them n run away....haha....kiddin' =p

i tot the thing start at 4pm but it started way earlier n ended at 3 plus. after that, the ppl there treat us to snack. while eating i got to know this girl better....at first we're like i eat 2 bites n tok 1 sentence then she eat 2 bites n tok 1 sentence. then it became i tok 5 sentences n eat 1 bite she tok 7 sentences n eat 1 bite. so funny....at first when i 1st saw her, i tot she was in primary skl cuz she looked like a kid...then she told me she in poly n is 18 now!!!!woah!!! she got a twin hu, to me, look exactly like her...i cudn't tell the diff between them....but she kept saying if u see us more often u'll see that we look very diff. reli....uhuh....i hope...she's the younger twin....she's not that shy actuali n we laughed....at first is i make her laugh then she make me laugh even harder by saying sumtin sillier than i did..

then after that call my dad to pick me up. i dun like my guzheng casing lor...though it's the best but it's damn heavy lor...i wan those type fabric 1 cuz it's less heavy n easy to carry.....

while walking on the corridor to my unit....i saw this hamster owned by my neighbour...that hamster was sleeping against the metal grill cage....the hamster so fat n like trying to squish through the cage n ended up the meat becum like sausage....haha....

woah...my post so long....haiz...nth to do ma...can't decide whether to play or do hw first....haiz...

kh!!!! u cannot do this to me 1!!!! tink carefully hor!!!! if it's reli abt ur ankle then i wun blame u....but if sumtin else....then u noe.....if u dun go means yx surely wun go la then left me n prolly yn which is darn pathetic la!!!

flyff!!! u oso cannot do this to me 1!!! hurry up with ur maintanence!!! i wanna play le!!! hurry!!

be seein' ya XD

5 DAYS!!!wooh!!!

excuse me :X
6:29:00 PM

Friday, March 10, 2006

nth much to say

there's nth much to say today....

tmr need to perform....kinda scared cuz we nvr practiced together b4. da teacher said tmr then practice together b4 the performance. i scared i wun be able to keep up with the rhythm. haiz~. nvm!! if reli cnt keep up, the most is to pretend to be playing lorz....no big deal...like anybody will notice..im not playing solo anywayz....hahaz...=p

juz finished reading 'the 7 habits of highly effective teens'. nice book n it taught me a lot n i think the author is a genius...

guess wat? 6 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!! woowee!!! i cnt wait!!! i tink march holidays gonna be fun cuz i can get to hang out with my pri skl frens!!finali!! es rawkz!! n i get to spent the day with my big brother celebrating my birthday, going arcade [ which i miss so much n long time nvr go le =( ], watching movie n stuff. too bad my 2nd brother got remedial that day n can't make it but it's okay....cuz at night i'm gonna eat dinner at some restaurant with all my family members anywayz....=D

short n' sweet

excuse me :X
6:58:00 PM

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

haha

today so funny.....when i reach skl my bro sms me....u noe wat he say? ......he said:crazy crazy i wear ur pe pants today.....
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....i was laughing like hell inside lorz!!! imagine him wearing my pe pants!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i bet his frens sure laugh at him like hell....i wish i was there to see too....hu ask him to call me crazy early in the morning!!!i kept teasing him n he kept calling me crazy crazy....haha....(he always call me 'crazy girl' at home) like: crazy girl, wat r u doing? or: u crazy crazy.....-.-"" when he see me he's sure to say the word 'crazy'.....=D n watever i do is crazy to him....haha....he's so feakingly funny!!!=D

got home n practised the guzheng!! haha....nowadays i like ai shang le my guzheng!!! later my mom n i going to buy skirt for my performance!!yay!!

short n' sweet

excuse me :X
4:42:00 PM

Sunday, March 05, 2006

craziness!!!

today ar....i dun wan to say.....

first my guzheng teachers said my lesson was changed to 3.45pm. then when i reached there got 2 students there learning liao....i was like: huh?????
then my teacher told me she forgot to tell that student that her lesson time has been changed.... -.-"
so i had to wait until 4.30pm to haf my lesson....meanwhile....i went walking around teck whye. i walk n walk n walk n walk n walk some more then look at my watch....i walked around the whole of teck whye( almost =p) n i still haf 15 minutes to my lesson!!! man!! y does the time pass so slowly?!!!
then i go the shop n save n walk some more....i go n looked at EVERYTHING on EVERY shelf for like....i duno how many times liao.....then look at my watch again.....4.25pm-.-"

haiz....i decide to slowly walk back to my classroom....when i reach there....still not time for my lesson yet!!!

n yes!!! 4.30pm!!! finali!!!lesson time!!! n then later another student came.....then i found out that my teacher forgot to tell this student her lesson time has been changed!!! again!!! then my teacher asked if she can wait until i finish my lesson then she haf hers....she said she need to send her son to NS later blah blah blah.....

WTF!!!!so again....i had to let her take her lesson 1st!!!! n guess wat?!!! again!!! i need to wait until 5.15pm for my turn!!! by then, i was reli pissed....i'm stuck there for so long!!! i still haf not done my hw!!! aaarrrghhhh!!!!

meanwhile....i was so pissed but dun wan my teacher to see......so i went out n complained to my mother.....i was so frustrated!!!then i stood against a pillar n stared at the rain( it was drizzling then)....it made me feel better....then i play the games on my handphone....boring!!!!

until finali 5.15pm came....if my teacher forgot to tell another student that his/her lesson time had been changed n i had to let him/her take the lesson 1st....i swear i will push that student out n slam the door until i'm done with my lesson.....luckily....this didn't happen this time round....phew....

but there is something to be happy about....i got my Grade 5 certificate!!!yay!!!=) i asked my mom to either frame it up or laminate it!!! then my teacher oso told me there is a performance next sat....at first i was: huh? so fast? got time to practice meh? then she told me she oso juz knew it yesterday night....-.-" but anyways...i agreed to perform....got chance then perform lorz....i lurve performances!!! muahaha!!!kiddin'!!

then i got home at around 6 plus....that's all.....u dun haf to noe wat i do at home rite?? =p no la....it's juz there's no point typing it out cuz it's the same ol' same ol'

be seein' ya!!!=)

excuse me :X
6:57:00 PM

Saturday, March 04, 2006

yay! my bday cumin!!

weee!!! 12 more days to my birthday!!
i'm gonna make sure this year's birthday is going to be so different from the past's.
muahahaha!!
i'm gonna enjoy my birthday!!
i'm gonna be the happiest girl on that day!!
i'm not gonna let anything cum in my way!!

i still haf not planned what i want to do on my birthday....hmmm...let's see.....my big bro suggests we go watch movie then play arcade!!! wooohoo!!!

what about with my frens?!! hmm....my sec skl frens wanna go ice-skating so i guess that's settled!!

then my pri skl frens leh? hmm...let's see....what can we do?hmmm.....i think i'm gonna need some time to think about this.....
i hope my co frens can do sumtin with me too!!!

hahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahaha

be seein' ya!!!

excuse me :X
5:53:00 PM