it's hard to concentrate if one day im not i will keep thinking now i know how it feels it's unpredictable even at night it doesn't let me go if this goes on i might go crazy
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6:18:00 PM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
i've been tagged! Rules: #1 Do the following without complaint! #2 Choose 5 people to do this quiz after you finished! #3 Leave a tag at the people's tagboards to say he/she have been tagged! #4 Start your post with "I have been tagged!" before doing this! YOUR 10 FAVOURITES Favourite colours : black. Favourite food : erm..dun haf... Favourite songs : by linkin park/pop/rock. hate slow n awful songs... Favourite movies : ... Favourite sports : bdmntn,bb,vb Favourite season : winter. Favourite day of the week :saturday. obviously..no sch..no nth.. Favourite ice-cream flavour : anything wif mint in it. Favourite book : no such thing... Favourite anime/cartoon : bleach,fma,school rumble,gundam etc.. YOUR 9 CURRENTS Current mood : moodless Current clothes : shirt+shorts Current desktop screensaver :advent children Current toe-nail colour : normal Current time : 3.11pm Current annoyance : the warm afternoon. Current thought : why am i even doing this? Current boy/girlfriend : no such thing... Current book you are reading : im not reading any book currently... YOUR 8 FIRSTS First best friend : rouxi First crush :long long time ago..cnt rmb.. First movie : cnt rmb too...parents brought me to the cinema n i juz stared at the screen.dats all i rmb First piercing :i haf no piercing la... First lie : i lied even b4 i knew i was lying so how the hell wud i noe? First music : abc lor... First car : im not old enuff to own a car.... First handphone : panasonic sth sth YOUR 7 LASTS Last cigarette : i hate cigarette... Last drink : fresh milk Last car ride : dad's car Last crush : no such thing... Last movie seen : CARS Last phone call : erm ystd..duno for wad oso.. Last CD played : kelly poon's...i was forced... YOUR 6 HAVEYOUEVERS Have you ever dated one of your best friends : no..crazy... Have you ever broken the law : of cos la..hu hadn't?.. Have you ever been arrested : i wud love to! lol..kiddin... Have you ever skinny-dipped : no..dun wanna get eaten by pirahnas... Have you ever been on TV : err no... Have you ever kissed someone you don't know : nw y wud i do dat?? weirdo... YOUR 5 THINGS WORN ON YOU #1 shirt #2 shorts #3 specs #4 undies #5 braces YOUR 4 THINGS DONE TODAY #1 wake up #2 eat cereal #3 complain to my bros bout the warm weather #4 yawn YOUR 3 THINGS YOU'RE HEARING NOW #1 kids playing downstairs #2 fan #3 hamsters squeaking YOUR 2 THINGS YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT #1 computer #2 hp YOUR 1 THING YOU WOULD DO WHEN YOU'RE BORED #1 annoy whoever's in the hse la...simple... The 5 unlucky people: i haf no idea...i dun wan to follow rules leh..canot ar?...complain complain complain..haha..lol..
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2:58:00 PM
Thursday, June 15, 2006
why
imagine there's a cloud beneath you lifting you higher everyday then one day you put your hands behind your back and felt that there's nothing there sooner than you know you're falling the next minute you're flat on the cold hard ground that's what it feels like to have your dreams crushed
everytime i hold a gun to my head i can't seem to pull the trigger my mind says just do it my heart says no way guess the heart is more powerful than the mind i'm hell glad my heart can see what i don't- the price of life.
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6:39:00 PM
Monday, June 12, 2006
wimp
say some stuff about me...oh yeah...look who's talking... if you want to talk rubbish about me..look at yourself first... maybe you can't take the truth that's why you push it to me assuring yourself like this really shows how wimpy you are it's okay..i'll take it...say whatever you want and i'll continue to see the wimp in you
i'm not angry or anything 'bout this i'm just saying out my opinion that's all there is to it
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9:38:00 PM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
...
there's little known fact about him but i know1.he's spoilt2.i don't want to be like him3.he's always 'right'4.i've given up talking to him unneccessarily entirely5.everyone else's character's is better than his6.he still doesn't realise what a jerk he is there's more but none of them is good not that i can think of.i just wanna say:when will you realise the world doesn't go according to you.for once,maybe,you could be wrong?why can't you just admit it? is it so hard?you know swallowing your pride is none fattening? i respect you but i don't have to like you.
excuse me :X
7:51:00 PM
Friday, June 09, 2006
shit
we have changed we have lesser things to talk about because we have lesser things in common i don't enjoy our time together as i used to because we felt like acquaintances i can feel the distance but i still am glad that we are still friends i really appreciate some of you guys if not for you guys, i don't think i would be here right now cause i'll be somewhere else being dead. you really don't know how much you've helped me i really want to say thank you but if i did i would have to explain why and the reason behind it will seem endless so, i'll say it when i'm ready. but i'll definitely say it, before all of us are gone. you see, i don't like to talk about the horrible part my past. you don't know what happened and you don't know how i felt. and trust me, you wouldn't want to experience what i had. so don't ever ask me about it cause the only thing i'll do is to stare at you until you back off.it still haunts me every single darn day but i won't let it haunt me forever.i don't understand why some people are so damn low that they can't go any lower.i really want to stare straight in their faces and asked: what the freaking hell is your shitty problem?they've got a problem and i have a problem with them.they think others are mud but actually, they themselves are the stinkiest mud.these people pisses me off just by looking at them.i pity those who know them.they don't know the meaning of humanity.so why don't they just shit,scoop up their shit, and eat their shit.i bet it'll taste nice cause that's what they are.shit.
excuse me :X
6:17:00 PM
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
sth
when i was young, i used to scare myself with something real stupid i made up.i would think about it over and over again until it freaked me out, until i feel like its the end of the world, there's no hope left.its really silly, i know...but i was young...i didn't know anything. but now, i did not make anything up, but why am i even feeling scared sitting down. im not thinking of anything and i feel cold(scared).there is something call fate.i hate it.it's my enemy.i'll bring the hate to my grave.i used to love it until now.i've written down my dreams on several parchments. fate burnt my first parchment.the parchment which had my most beautiful dream on it.my dream is gone.its never gonna happen.because of fate.really..did i ever offended it? why does it have to do this to me. it's unreasonable.that's all.i don't think i can get over it.maybe i never will.its a big serious thing.its no joke.i can't take it easy.i won't take it easy.i don't hate anything else except fate.this is my second time writing this. the first time i wrote this and was about to publish it when there was a blackout.was it trying to hint me something?was it trying to let me not publish it?im not okay.this is the first time i've ever feel im really not okay.in the past, when i feel down,i feel okay cause i know i'll get passed it.time heals everything.does it?once,i really thought life was turning around.guess that's just an illusion.or im deluding myself.im opening my eyes and looking at my dreams come crashing down on me.when i think about it,my eyes will turn red and tears well up.but im not gonna let the tears fall.cause the hell i would let fate see me cry.the hell i would drop a tear because of it.over my dead body.i don't like to express my sad feelings,and because of this,im destroying myself bit by bit everyday.i had a horrible past.it destroyed half of me. go on fate, destroy what's left of me.until i was no more.then i'll be happy.i don't care anymore.there's one person who helped me indirectly.her behaviour,though unsightly,made me realised a lot of things.one day,i'll thank her.
destroy me. i won't mind.
im looking forward to tomorrow!!cause i'll be hanging out with my pri sch frens! its been a long time!=)
