you want apologies girl, you might hold your breath until your breathing stops forever, forever the only thing you'll get is this curse on your lips: i hope they taste of me forever
with every breath i wish your body will be broken again, again with every breath i wish your body would be broken again, again with every breath i wish your body will be broken again, again with every breath i wish your body would be broken again
these are parts of the lyrics from chicago is so two years ago by fall out boy.
it kinda describes how i'm feeling. some sort of anger.
you can ignore the 'girl,....' part cause i'm not referring to any girl i'm not cursing anyone either
excuse me :X
12:00:00 AM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
okay, so i shall post about the gathering (sorry la, i forgot (= ) the gathering was nice, really i felt really comfortable i felt like i can finally breathe for real i don't know why either we met up at HKPS first i was one of the last to arrive x) we were only there for a while til the principal chase us out actually, it wasn't chase it's more like requesting us to leave cause of some reason that i can't remember but most likely it's cause i didn't bother to pay attention haha then we went to the bus stop and decided where to go majority wanted to go westmall but yn wanted to go lot 1 majority wins this is the first time i have a gathering with people other than the es we went to burger for lunch bought...can't remember either haha! out of the 3 tables occupied by us the table where kh yx yn n i sat were the noisiest cause we laughed the loudest we still talked about almost the same things =) it was fun, seriously then we went around the mall walk here walk there wanted to watch movie but most of them didn't bring enough money spent few hours there doing nothing at all cause we can't decide what to do but it was great, though to be able to be with my old friends is enough for me it doesn't have to be a great gathering as long as i feel happy around them then after that some of them went to play badminton the rest of us went home i hope the next gathering can be nicer more people to join us it was then that i realize how different my secondary school and primary school friends are maybe cause we are more alike we have more to talk about we are more common it's just nice to have known them =D here ends the part about the gathering forgive me if i missed out anything cause i don't really have a good memory x) then there's another thing it has nothing to do with the gathering more about my life lately, when i look at people the nerves in my eyes tighten it's not that my eyes have problems it's more of the feelings inside me changed it's just so confusing! i don't know what to feel anymore how i wish i don't have to feel numbness is the best sitting here, i feel like smacking myself and my dreams are getting weirder and weirder from ridiculous to ridiculous i mean, all my previous dreams have been ridiculous and i've been okay with that cause it's ridiculous to a acceptable extent but these few days, the dreams are just too much they are ridiculous till the extent that i wanna puke are these dreams trying to tell me something? no it can't be, cause it has no meaning at all then what is it? why do i have such dreams? i don't even think of the same thing during daylight these things does not concern me i'm not interested my mom used to tell me when i asked her why do people have dreams that there's something on your mind you might not be aware of it that's why it appears in your dream if you don't dream, means you have absolutely nothing on my mind i'm the kind of person who doesn't have much dreams i don't dream a lot it's only when i don't dream that i can sleep peacefully whenever i dream, it's like i'm on a ride everything's so ridiculous that i love it i still don't get why i get these dreams hope that tonight i can dream of something acceptably ridiculous or even better, not dream at all cause i seriously don't have anything on my mind right here, right now except my unexplanable cause for all these dreams i don't wanna find out the cause just leave me alone don't make me until i'm afraid to even dream these dreams are worse than nightmares it's horribly terribly ridiculously rotten, rancid, repugnant( same meaning, i know) geez
excuse me :X
9:01:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
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