what can i say? i brought it on myself i brought all these on myself why didn't i listen? guess i'm too afraid to think of the future always thinking that the future's very far away me to me: serve you right i couldn't face myself now i'm scared to death how do i get by? i realise i like tomake myself suffer i deserve every single bit of it i didn't care now i care so much till i feel that all my energy has been sucked out of me i just couldn't think that the consequences would be more than i can take i keep stabbing myself i am my own murderer why do i keep doing this? i do a lot of things without knowing why a lot of things i'm not proud of nobody really knows what i'm thinking 'cause i don't want them to know they wouldn't like to know anyway i wouldn't like to know myself but you know, i don't have a choice i am made up of crap lotsa lotsa crap
excuse me :X
10:37:00 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
n o m o r e d r a m a p e o p l e a r e t i r e d o f i t s o a m i i d o n ' t n e e d i t f o r m y o w n g o o d p e o p l e a r e h u r t a n d t h i s h a v e h u r t m e
excuse me :X
8:16:00 PM
Friday, June 15, 2007
been trying to do my hw these past few days but i keep getting distracted by myself.... -.- now, only a few hw has been done, none completed... n it's like almost the end of the third wk of hols why time fly so fast? n haven't completed even a single project waaahhhhh what am i gonna do? dunno wad i'm doing either haii whyyyyyy i feel like i've been divided int different pieces n all these pieces are lying all over the place i need to pick em all up and piece em together i better start tmr n i've never done all the things that i wanna do during the june hols i'm wasting my own time i'm wasting my life away on wad? i dun even noe... u noe it isn't fate it's been so long is there reli such thing? sometimes i belive it sometimes i dun like when i luk at u i cnt wait for the day i dun hafta see u again whr u slowly fade away in my head, until some day in the future, somebody asks me, do u still rmb....? i'll go, who? be gone dun eva return u dowan anytin to do wif me i wan nth to do wif u when i luk at u, i reli feel sad i dunno why maybe cuz it's u.... who r u? wad r u doing to me? i'm vomitting everytin out i'm getting it all out u haf gotta be e most oblivious person eva bt that's ok cuz i've accepted that u may nvr see... this way, i've got more things to write n it'll be sadder it's better this way who am i kiddin? i cud nvr 4get u how can i eva 4get the person who tortured me so much? all the while, not knowing a single thing
excuse me :X
10:47:00 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
argh just now wrote a post then can't publish then i hafta restart com and now it's gone so i'm not gonna rewrite everything again so i just write abt my feelings our crazy idea today it was so much fun although it was just a simple little thing but i think it's worth mentioning i never thought you were this kind of person i feel that i could really hang with you cause we click so well =D
excuse me :X
8:15:00 PM
your hands held tight with all your might the smile on your face that cannot be erased i fell down, hard on the ground only so many times for me to finally realise this is as far as i can go this is the line before you know being pushed against the wall and hurt like never before while you had one eye closed i was turning into a ghost you never wanted this so i shall give you all the bliss you could ever want so have fun without you hearing my cries without me in your eyes
excuse me :X
12:16:00 AM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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