it wasn't mine from the start maybe it's time we part the truth i know is that someday you will go just like you did before what did you take me for? i saw this coming while somebody else was hurting what goes around comes around your ugly truth will be found i don't have to pretend it's not my loss 'cause whatever it is, it's not my flaws i can feel it, the days are numbered i'm gonna see if you're gonna be faltered i bet no you have no soul i'm getting my share first i'm sure you'll get yours worse it won't be an eye for an eye it's a waste of my time, you are full of lies i can tell what you are up to go ahead then, this is you
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10:11:00 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
i am not myself i don't know why i don't feel like myself i don't like the me now what is with me? how can i lose myself? just be yourself i can't do that right now * i'm still not able i'm getting worse looking at your eyes i see nothing
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7:03:00 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
you are an impossibility it's as clear as it could be a figure in my memory i see a beautiful scenary welcome to my fantasy
this is so lame it's been a long time since i wrote poems didn't have the time didn't have the inspiration and the worse thing is i've been having headache every single darn day since last friday what the hell now my brain's feeling itchy not my head, my brain i'm serious i really hope this headache will go away permanently someday very hard to concentrate, man i've never had headache problems before the doctor said i'm normal so why the headache? go away!!!!! make me no mood most of the time i want to have my normal life back!
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10:17:00 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
WHAT ARE YOU??!!
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4:34:00 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
i'm done sitting at home thinking about what i could've done thinking about the world outside thinking about what i could be i'm done dreaming the picture in my head it's time to make it real i will start painting with my hands paint it with my heart and soul the beautiful picture that is in my head i won't waste any more time i don't have my youth forever it's now or never i don't care what you think you can't stop me i can think for my own, i can think of ways to get there with or without you this is my life you won't know how i feel you don't have a life, doesn't mean i will be the same i won't go down with you you want this kind of life, but we don't why must you be so normal? you can go give me all the friggin crappy excuses all you want i'm not buying any never, from the start i could never understand how you think, neither can you ever understand how i think i'm done, i give up trying to understand your head i can do it on my own i don't have to suffer quietly under your hands anymore time doesn't stop, days don't stop passing i'm growing up everday and there's nothing you can to do to stop it you never believed me, right? i know i don't look convincing but you know what? you don't know me you don't know that i'm the kind of person whom the more you look down on, the more i will do it to prove you wrong the more you don't believe in me, the more motivation you give me i get satisfaction from just seeing the look on your face when i've finally done it and it benefits me as well it's totally worth it it's a win win situation ha! it has happenend before remember, that time, although you didn't really say it out but i know what you're thinking i didn't practise enough, there's a high chance that i won't score well but waddayaknow? i end up with a distinction the look on your face, the smile in my heart it's such a happy scenario i will do it, and some day you're gonna see you're gonna regret ever thinking that about me and i'll be sitting down and pondering depending on the kind of person i've become should i say: so do you think you're wrong to ever think that about me? or should i say: i did all these no thanks to you? revenge it sweet my accomplishment, should i share with you? you didn't help me am i that kind of person? hmmmm... but she brought me up better than this i shouldn't bear any anger in me there is no point i want my life to be happy whatever the outcome may be i will do my part, even though i wouldn't really mean it you should know better why we're like that we'll be sorry, but you should be sorrier we didn't ask for this, you did if what you've done doesn't drag my life down to deep shit if after what you've done i still can live the life i want then i can forgive you 'cause all you've done, will be in the past i can forgive and forget i want to have space to remember the nice parts of my life how much of you will be in it? that depends on you so far, you haven't fare well you are a constant example for me to not become just see yourself someday, alright? you hold on too much, it's becoming a burden to you just let go, and you'll realise you could be happier your hand isn't that big, it can't hold so much so what? really, so what? if you kept all those? you think it could be of some use some day but when? for all you know, that day may never come life is about experiencing you should know let go of the old, open up to the new one life man, whether good or bad just experience it you so obviously don't get it you're missing so much, do you know? don't waste your life away not knowing for all the things you've done, needless to say, you will pay but i won't be the one making you pay someone something somewhere will how i wish you could see, and listen there's always someone better there's always some words better than yours said by someone who probably isn't that 'great' as you although it's from a mouth not as 'superior' as yours it doesn't mean it's no better if you're really what you think you are live up to that name, live it up right listen to others it doesn't hurt don't go telling me it'll hurt your pride that's only what you think you can't see yourself right nobody can so c'mon, listen
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5:56:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
