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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

yay!
finally my guzehng exam is over!
of course, if you want me to rate on my performance
it wouldn't be good
but, the good thing is my hands didn't tremble anymore,
like it always do for all my previous exams
i don't know why, the only think i was scared of at that time is forgetting the notes
but the worst part is the aural exam
oh my goodness la
screwed up until nothing more to screw le
'cause my teacher train me by playing the 'la' note first
then i thought exam also like that
i thought wrong
she just give me the notes la
and i couldn't identify them at all
everytime i gave an answer she shakes her head?
i mean, how can examiner tell you whether correct or wrong?
then i gave a lot of othr answers, which probably are wrong too
then she keep asking me confirm ah confirm not
i don't know la!
crap
if i'm not wrong, i have to at least pass the aural exam
to get an overall distinction
and marks will be deducted the more answers you give
and i don't know give how many different answers le
haha
and then got the on the spot play thing
which i thought won't have this year
but luckily, it's quite simple 'cause i'm familiar with the 'diao'

happy that the exam is over
now i'm bored
don't know what to do
don't feel like doing anything either
and my head hurts
..................

excuse me :X
3:54:00 PM

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

freak la
ytd night, don't know what happened to my hp
when dx sms me b4 10.30 i only received
those msgs at 12plus and 2 at 1plus
then cuz i set it to ring mode cuz im
using my hp to be my alarm clock
then the whole night keep ringing la
so annoying leh!
the worst is my bro's msg
he sent at ard 9 i only received at 2am
i only slept at 3 am la
that's it
i'm not using my hp to be my alarm clock anymore
later it go crazy on me again
but in the morning it's ok le leh
very weird

tmr's the big day!
i'm excited and not excited
excited for it to be over
not excited about the process

excuse me :X
12:35:00 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

烦死人了！！！
and it's all because of my dad
since last week i already told
him that i need him to help
me send my guzheng over to
my classroom for the teacher
to help me tune it
and he said ok
then today, i woke up and
saw him sleeping on the chair,
with the tv turned on, as usual
(yeah, and he goes around complaining
that we're wasting electricity when we,
especially me, just come out of my room for
a while and didn't off the lights$&$(%@&)@&!!!!!!)
then i tried to wake him up, i called him
several times
and during my last call, he woke up for a moment
i knew that he had woken up because he stopped
snoring, and i saw that his eyes have slightly opened
and then he close it back
then i thought: was he purposely ignoring me?
maybe not, so i went back into his room
to watch tv first, deciding to call him again later
then his hp rang and he had to go get it
after the call, he told me: why do you need to
tune your guzheng anyway? the examiner's not gonna
care if your guzheng is out of tune, they just wanna
listen to how well you can play
then i felt pissed
i said: you don't want to send me there isit? then why say
such things?
then he never ansswer directly, just keep
making this same point over and over again
(yeah ok, even if the examiner doesn't care about
the guzheng being out of tune, then after the exam leh?
if we tune it now, then don't need to tune it later what.
you know, a well tuned instrument sounds a lot better
when you play? you feel nicer playing it? and yeah, i couldn't
tune it on my own 'cause i' m not that good. and i don't have
a tuner)
i thought he was just saying so i went to my
room to pack my guzheng up and got ready
then when i looked into his room, i saw him sleeping!
what the hell!!
so i went in and said: you really don't want to send me there isit?
he said: your guzheng no need tune la! i'm very tired! ( then he
says the same things about the examiner won't care if your guzheng
is out of tune...blah blah blah...)
ok, now i'm really pissed off
he sure is good at making excuses
what tired la
please lor, all you ever do when you come back form work
is to watch tv, and half the time you'll be sleeping there
how tiring can that be?
and he sorta broke his promise, last minute some more
and then i had to tell my teacher we couldn't go
we're suppose to be there by 9.45
and i think my teacher's first lesson is at 10
so that means my teacher wanted to come early
to help me tune my guzheng
and it ended up like this
all because of my dad

this is a really long complain
because i won't feel satisfied unless i say every single point
if i complain about other people, maybe i won't say so much
but you see, my dad is different
some people wanna grow up to be just like their parents
their parents are such good example
as for me, and i think my bros too, wanna grow up
to NOT be like my dad
i realised this long ago
the older we get, the more tired of him we are
my big bro first realised this 'cause he has experienced it first
we don't really interact with our dad unless we
necessarily have to
i know this may be mean of me to say
but it's the truth
you try living with him then you know
i feel like moving out as soon as possible
to get away from all of these bullsht
you know, even if my dad doesn' say anything
but as long as he is in the house, i will feel
kinda feel down, like somebody has poured cold water over me
your spirits will fall from the highest point to the lowest
and it's no wonder why i never really did feel like smiling
whenever i see him
my mum once said this: maybe he is spoiled since
he is the youngest in the family and my grandma always
dotes on him
(yeah, i really think so too. and i'm the youngest too. so the
more i have to avoid being like him since i know what it feels like
to be living with a person with this kind of shtty attitude)
no wonder now he doesn't know how to compromise
everything has to go his way,
he is impatient
others can wait for him but he, himself cannot
once we let him wait, he' ll throw a temper
he always thinks he's right, no matter what
(and this is the reason why we don't really fee like talking to him)
very stingy, everytime wanna get money from him,
he surely will say that i ALWAYS spend a lot
yeah other things also, keep saying ALWAYS
when i never ALWAYS
it's very irritating you know
and the list of examples of his shtty attitude can go on and on
but i don't want to say all of them
not worth it, and i think people can roughly get a picture of this person
i'm not trying to make him look bad, it's he, himself, is already like this
what can i say....

excuse me :X
9:58:00 AM

Saturday, November 24, 2007

yay!
just changed my blog skin
i love this picture a lot!
but then
the skin code came with a lot
of problems
like it doesn't look like
the one in preview
so i had to try to look for
the problems
took me quite some time
and i edited some of the fonts
'cause they were too small
even i couldn't see them clearly
now, it's finally done!
but i don't know why my imeem and flashbox is not working
i can't be bothered with them today
i'll try to fix it some other day ba

excuse me :X
2:41:00 PM

Friday, November 23, 2007

today went to some photography talk by Gerry Ellis

with the green club members

i thought only the IT members will be there

but it turns out, it was organized by the green club

and i don't understand why the hell we need to go

only 5 IT club members went

the rest were green club members

so pathetic!

it was not a photography talk

more like on environmental awareness

it was quite interesting, the photograph part

but the day was not so great

first, we were told to meet at 12.30pm

but actually was 12.15pm

and then i almost missed the bus that was

transporting us the maris stella high school(the place where the talk was held)

then when i arrived at school, i saw the bus moving
out of the gate

it didn't seem like it was going to wait for me

then seemun called to ask me to hurry up

when i saw the bus at the gate, she told

me to run
so i ran

like what la

ok, this isn't entirely my fault

we were given the wrong time, right?

then, i feel like we're being treated like extras

i mean, if you're gonna treat us like that

why bother even asking us to go?

what, go there and see your lian se ah?

and i saw the real side of somebody

thanks, for letting me see the truth

or else i would've always thought you were good

ha!

and we passed by st. andrews jc!

omg the school is so damn nice

i especially like the bridge over some canal/river (duno?)

but it's over some water body

the bridge is very long too

and the swimming pool!

now i feel like going there, but it's too far away

why all the nice jcs all located so far away?!

and i still don't know which jc i wanna go to...

i still can't figure out maris stella high

whether it's a chinese school or what

'ccause their motto is in chinese

they seem to have a lot of chinese

words at their entrance

but then the name of the school

is so ang moh

and they have a chapel inside the school

so i really don't know what it is

and the school is located in a funny place

just beside it is some sort of a cemetery

don't really know the name

it's like a place where you go to to

pay your respects to the dead

where they have shelves and the names

of the dead people

i'm really bad with terms

and a bit further away is a police place

didn't really catch the name of the place

and to tell you the truth,

i have never heard of the school ever before

before this

and it's probably because it's so far away...

i just saw a video of the song "a sorta fairytale" by tori amos

the song is very beautiful but after watching the video,

it totally turned me off

to see a female head on a leg and a male head

on an arm

and then later they grew the rest of the body

on the beach
i only like the part when had bodies

'cause it's just really freaky to see

a head on an arm/ leg

so now, i'm trying to listen to the song

without thinking about the video

i still feel like puking now

haii

been staying home this whole week

can you imagine how boring it is??!!!

everyday wake up so late

by the time i wake up, almost noon already

half the day is gone

then i do a little bit of things only

then it's night already

and i'm busy preparing for my guzheng exam

coming next wed!!

omg!

everyday i'm practising like 2-3 hours

so damn tired of this routine

but no choice

grade 7

not easy, according to my teacher

gotta work extra extra hard!

想偷懒都不可以

just hope wed comes fast fast and go fast fast

then after that i don't have to worry about anything!

but i scared i screw up

then for the rest of the holiday will be worried

about my results

headache!

if i don't do well, my dad's gonna

nag like hell

argh!!

advice to myself:

get into the music
be one with the music

and then you won't feel the prescence

of the examiner

yeah, easier said than done

so far, i'm not enjoying my holidays AT ALL

one, i'm always cooped at home

obsessed with practising guzheng

two, i can't sleep at night

i will toss and turn for ages

and i still won't fall asleep

so frustrating la

don't know why i can't sleep

now, when i wanna take this holiday to

sleep early everyday also cannot

yeah, sleep early, which means

lying on my bed, trying to sleep

i think my family go sleep already

i'm still wide awake

it has been like this for a few days already

cannot

must find something to make me fall asleep

i'm gonna consult my mother tonight

see if she got any good methods

now i don't feel like sleeping

scared that i can't fall asleep...

(click for animation)

excuse me :X
6:21:00 PM

Sunday, November 18, 2007

i don't want it to repeat
'cause you don't deserve it
none of it
you won't have to go through any of it
like what that bstard did
if it turns out to be what i'd expected
and then there is the what if it doesn't
maybe i should take this jump
maybe the rope will snap, like last time
and i would fall and break every bone in my body
and i would curse till my very last breath
then i will wake up, after a long time
to be standing on the top of the cliff again
but the sky looks different
it's my favourite weather, but i don't feel it
if i'm gonna jump again
i wanna bring along the meaning of it all
but there isn't any
it never existed
so i'm wondering what exactly should i do
to let it all just pass like the clouds in the wind
save the lightning and thunder
does this gurantee me i won't regret?
but then again, if i jump this time
maybe my bones are not the only ones breaking
there is one way that's the best
that is to sit here and close my eyes
to not see the clouds pass by
just let everything be as they are now
all that are subtle, so let them be
some things are better left unsaid

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
damn right!
you will never know what is it that i wanna say!
tough luck!
hahaha!
crazy!

anyway, i'm gonna start cleaning my room
da sao chu!
or sth like that!
i need to find a place to put
the electronic keyboard
'cause i need to practise for my guzheng exam
weird huh?
yeah, one of the section is to test
on identifying the notes
and i tell you, i suck at it
but the weightage is not very high
so not that big of a deal
but if got easy points to score
why not huh?
i am excited about cleaning my room
but i'm not excited about the exam
which is coming in 10 days!
!!!!!!!
and coincidentally, it's my mum's birthday that day
i've been practising for 2 hrs every day
better believe it
i'm damn hardworking!
budden it's no point when
in front of the teacher i can't play properly
in front of examiner will be worse la!
cannot
i must find people to watch me play
to build my confidence and courage!
my mum, as always, will be my audience
i always ask her to watch me play
whenever exams are nearing
this time, i'm gonna ask a few more people
like my bros
i'm not gonna ask my dad
i don't want him to pour cold water on me
as he always do
however much i play, it's never good enough for him
i'm done with him and i couldn't care less about what he thinks

haven't touched any of my hw
maybe i will touch them some day in the near future....
haha =)

watch the noose!

excuse me :X
8:24:00 PM

Monday, November 12, 2007

ha!
poem in chinese!
not bad huh?
may sound odd but...what the heck!
haha

here goes:

书本翻开第一页

写着这单纯开始的一切

每一笔每一划，都是蹦跳的心在对你说

我不求些什么，只想借一借你的耳朵

远看误认为是什么宝

近看明确只不过是每天都踩过的草

在绘画展览厅里

有一幅画正在看着你

他挥着手，想开口

你却若无其事地走

就只一句，那么简单的一句

你从不回头，就这样离去

你不说话有你的道理

我也不会强迫你

世上南与北的存在是有它的理由

我明白了，也不想再追究

we™

excuse me :X
8:17:00 PM