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Friday, June 13, 2008

i could tell you stuff that would seem insane
but i wouldn't want to shoot myself in the foot again
it's pretty obvious there's something that makes me afraid
well, it's the consequence that i hate

so what if i told you there are not one side to this but two
would the world stop spinning for you
but what i meant to say that day
was, are you okay

i know there's no end to this now

excuse me :X
10:33:00 PM

Thursday, June 12, 2008


today went out with kok haw and yu xuan
yan ngee is supposed to be there but she's just too busy
i'm still wondering what she's busy with
hhmm....
just before i went out today
had a quarrel with my dad
and that's why i don't like to tell him where i was going
he just have so many questions
and unnecessary inquiries
i told my mum about it just now
and she says it's probably because he's too protective of me
maybe so
but i think he is still too unreasonable
i know what i'm doing, alright?
first we went to queensway
then kok haw keep complaining the building very old
i agree, but there's a lot of stuff
after that we decided to went to marina square
i was starving
haven't eat breakfast because woke up late
haha
before we searched for food, we went to the cinema
to see if there is movie to watch
actually we wanted to watch get smart
but it wasn't out yet
and there's no other movie worth watching
so we walked one whole round around the basement
at first i said i didn't want to eat swensens
but then later agreed
the meal was okay
kok haw keep saying the pizza is damn nice
but i find it okay
and very oily
haha
and yu xuan, the amount of salt you put on your fries...
i haven't seen anybody who eats like you
this is not an insult ah
then after that kok haw say the fountain thing
will bring good luck
so we went to try
yu xuan was too chicken to do it
haha no la
he just thinks it's childish or embarrassing right?
so kok haw and i went to the fountain
and we circled around it three times
and wishing silently
i wished for 2 things
first is, obviously, score well for O's
the other... slowly guess ba
haha
but whether or not it comes true
it doesn't matter
i just did it for the fun of doing it
and the water was very cooling
very nice
and i think yu xuan took a picture of us walking around the fountain?
along the way, kok haw suddenly smsed me: kaykayss
lol!
and all the way kok haw keep telling us that they didn't call him
一直吊起来卖
hahaha!
we went to the millenia walk or something is it?
cannot remember
we walked from one end to the other
then decided to go back
but before that we went the upstairs de
harvey norman
the whole level is harvey norman
i didn't know that
but i like it
then we went to bugis
then shopped around for a while
by that time we are all so tired
so we just went to mac to sit down
and 'recharge' according to kok haw
and you're a lousy batt! can leak some more
lol
after a long time, then yu xuan finally decided
to buy a coke
and then he took a long time to drink
finally we went to yoshinoya
i ordered ebi!
'cause that's the only thing i can eat
others are like beef or salmon or chicken teriyaki
it's not that i can't eat all these
but it's just i don't really like them
especially beef
then we went to bugis street
and i found out from kok haw there's a male street and female street
i never really noticed
and kok haw needed to go for his chalet
after so much pondering!
不要一直吊起来卖!
hahaha
and i remembered
at the mrt, i said, 你有脸可以丢meh?
hahaha! don't get offended ah
haha
so kok haw we for his chalet
and yu xuan and i went home
i think his friends' stories are very funny
haha
and i think kays sounds normal
even for a guy to say it
as long as it's not kaiies or something like that
i think it's just extra
i talked to him about friends stuff also
and i don't think stuff is a cheesy word
don't know why kok haw's teacher thinks so
lol!
the correction
overall, had fun, as usual
it would be better if yan ngee was there also
not bad huh
still able to be like this
after 7 years
7 years of friendship!
friends like this are hard to come by
that's why i'm so glad
thanks people!
=D
and kok haw, so loose!
lol no la
you know what i mean =p

oh! remind myself to get photos from them
lol
reminds me of the incident today
i seriously don't know how to take photo with hp
i mean the angle, at which distance should i hold the hp
haha
when kok haw said nearer or something like that
i thought he meant the hp
so i pulled the hp nearer
but actually he meant me
so yu xuan started laughing like mad
lol!
and we took a long time just to take photos!
=)

so here's a reminder to myself:
1. get photos
2. tell kok haw to link me! seriously!
3. link yu xuan


this is a long post, i know
'cause it's like the first time i went out for the whole day since holidays started
ever since the start of holidays, all i've been doing was revise
i haven't even touched a single homework yet
'cause i wanna take homework as revision
so after i've revised all, i'll start doing them
to see how well i fair
to see if i've been revising effectively
i really hope so
'cause i've been spending a lot of time on revising
it is only now that i realised
and i feel that i may not have time
but i am determined to revise all by the end of holidays
so that's why i've been cooping myself at home
don't feel like going out until my work is done
but today was a great opportunity to relax
must have a balance
cannot always study
and i think i'll be going out again
because i promised my junior that i will go out with her during the june holidays
and i haven't forgotten!
'cause after all these years, she still remembered my birthday
this year, she smsed me to wish me happy birthday
i didn't expect her to remember, but she did
so i'm glad
haha =D


and my performance is coming out this sunday
i only got to know on monday
when in the morning, i was still lying on my bed
and the phone rang
so my brother went to answer
and told me it was my guzheng teacher
i was so shocked
i was thinking, did i get into any trouble?
why would she call me in the morning?
luckily,
it was a performance
she told us that she only got to know about it last night
anyway, this performance is for charity
to help the victims of sichuan earthquake and the mynmar cyclone
and guess what
it may sound odd
but for everybody who is performing, you have to pay $20
i found it odd 'cause you need to pay to perform
when i told my mum about it that night, she also found it odd
she was also wondering how come i have to pay to perform
but it's okay la
i mean, it's for charity
and every ticket costs $10
it's from 3pm to 7pm
at where, i'm still not sure yet
'cause that day she said it in chinese
and of course, i wouldn't know where it will be if you say in chinese
don't know if all the way is guzheng performance only
wah
then it'll be like guzheng marathon
my teacher said it's organised by the guzheng society or something
at first the plan was to perform as a group
the same group as at the cc
then later decided not to
'cause don't have time to get together to practice
probably
so now, everybody have to perform SOLO
i have never performed solo before
ever!
if that day there's a lot of people
and most of them plays guzheng
and guzheng teachers will be there too
all the guzheng people
see how nerve-wrecking that can be!
but one thing i look forward to is my teacher playing
i think she'll be great
maybe i'll even video tape it
i wonder how that day will turn out to be
i've somehow memorized my piece
and this piece makes your fingers sore
and there's a lot of sheng fa and qian xi
very hard to manage ah
fingers pain
but i hope i don't forget the notes that day
so embarrassing!
haha
when i first asked my mum to buy the ticket
she said: are you going to chase me home after you have performed, again?
haha
'cause the other time, i was performing as a group
at the cc, for some elderly event
then we were just an item for the whole event
we were the earlier items, so after we performed
all the people will sing lao ge( old songs)
and i hate to listen to lao ge, very boring
so i asked my mum if we can go already
then she said: wah, you ask me come just to watch you perform ah? so da pai hor.
then i said: yeah la, of course, i don't like lao ge
haha lol
then she said wait la, i wanna listen
okay so i waited
until the 14th item and we left
i made a deal with her
i compromise a bit and she compromise a bit
i keep reminding her which item it was now
like counting down to the time i can leave
haha
so she never really gave me a definite answer
so i kept pestering her to buy
but she always ask me: are you gonna chase me to go again?
then i said: depends. if got lao ge, i'm gone. but if it's guzheng performance, i'm okay
so today, my teacher smsed me and ask how many tickets i want
so i came home and asked my mum again
i said: one last time ah, you want to go or not?
then she said: yeah la, i go, but only if i can stay till the end
actually, i want her to go
so if she say she don't want to go
i will give her a guilt trip
haha so mean =p
i think having my mum attending my performances are very important
that's why i always wanted her to be there when i perform
so wish me luck this sunday
for a good cause
i hope i don't screw up
cross fingers
=D

oh! i watched the news just now
about 2 people dying during army training or something
and i noticed, that everybody in the army
who wears black spectacles and when in uniform
looks like my big brother!
really!
i mean, i've noticed a long time before
it's like, once they shave their head, and wear black specs
viola!
every single one of them looks like my big bro
it's like they have the same one look
but after they take out the spec or don't wear uniform
then they look like their own person
amazing......


excuse me :X
11:17:00 PM

Saturday, June 07, 2008

this is probably the longest poem i have written
maybe because i haven't written for so long
then i have so many inspirations
i think this is a pretty good storyline
only if you could understand the way i understood it
haha =D







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"Ladies and Gentlemen, we are presenting..."

the narrator's voice blasted to where i was sitting

in a black dress, i was almost late

but the theatre has one missing ticket



the curtain draws and there was the first scene

there were 2 people in the coffee house chatting

there's something about the street outside

it's probably due to the shining bright light



the old friends decided to go shopping together to catch up on old times

they passed by a shop when a clock chimed

the decoration was pretty at the gift store

but i swear i have been there before



one of them invited the other over on a job at the home

to take care of the folks who were left alone

an old man spoke of the days of the army boys

at that moment, i thought i heard a familiar voice



the magic show is where the story starts

something's gonna happen but i won't know much

they have something more in common, the story will reveal

something deeper, darker, and sealed with a deal



i'd have to agree that it can be entertaining

amusing you with something you have never seen

but for all what magic show's turn out to be

is nothing more than visual trickery



i was lost for a moment there

as memory pulls me back to a certain somewhere

i can hear the waves crashing against the wall

and this was the place where i took my fall



it was a bright sunny day

a perfect day for swimming but there he lay

with shades and ear muffs on

can things be any more wrong?



staring at the sun at noon time

was he out of his mind?

may be, maybe it's for show

but you're asking me about somebody i don't know



of course he wouldn't remember a single thing

after all, he's the one who gave me all the water i can drink

as i struggled and screamed for help

pleasure from the sun-tanning was all he felt



i wondered how many slaps i'd have to take

even to the point when my face turns red

to wake up and realise this was a mistake

and i shouldn't have sat there like a fool to wait



this is no different from being in a prison

in this four by four, i'm the only person

day after day, it's nothing but torture

i thought i wouldn't make it out for sure



it's too unbelievable for it not to be a dream

in a world where you forever sink

and when you look up everyday, it's rain

until i pinched myself and felt the pain



once again i'm staring at the stage

everything came to me and formed an image

these people were there all along

but they were just in the other part of the song



the other day along that street

remember how waiting for someone makes you tick

and when the person finally appeared, in fact

i waved, you waved, and the person behind waved back



i remembered i was dragged into the shop

you said come here and see what i've got

it was nice but who was it for

but i noticed i didn't like the pretty pink doll



each and every word you said

i was drowning in an imaginary lake

not that you had to explain or even prove

just that it was me who couldn't hear the truth



this could be simpler than i thought it would be

everything placed in front for me to see

sometimes there's something more than meets the eye

other times, it is just a downright lie



like a person who has woken up from a nightmare

you tell me who the hell wants to go back there?

unless the sleep fairy came to lend a hand

but somehow i can still feel your presence beside where you stand



frozen in a block of ice, i can't move

i didn't have a choice to choose

only when the grey clouds vanish and the sky becomes clear

would i step out of the house without that fear



after much turmoil and secrecy but finally

it's alm0st the end and they are happy

this is the kind of ending that is expected

but in reality how many of these have actually existed?



time is wasting but still i believe

you will give everything you've got to give

if this is what you want

then get up and start to run



before the curtains draw

before the end of it all

"come everybody, let's take a bow"

because...... we're over now

we™
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excuse me :X
1:37:00 PM

Sunday, June 01, 2008

who are you to say that
who am i to believe you
after so many years
i'm still struggling with the same old thing
what i know does not reflect in the mirror
no matter how clear it may be
the 2 things missing in my life
when will i ever find them back
if only you could undertstand
the things i wanted to do
but let them slip through my fingers
the things i hate myself for
but if you can't
then i guess you're just like everybody else


i am made of everybody else except myself

excuse me :X
6:05:00 PM

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