there's something not worth knowing i bet you know that best it's something worth suffocating so welcome, be my guest a thousand words have spoken maybe this is not enough maybe you want a picture taken go ahead, i'll just sit here and laugh it's time for realisation when all your plans backfire this is what is in existence take a back seat and retire what is said and done you can't refute not long from now it'll be gone forever i have done everything i could in the end, it's what you remember
excuse me :X
6:29:00 PM
this would be better at any rate now i feel better somehow it makes me let go of all this guilt i couldn't do anything but see the flower wilt it would not survive anyway not now not ever not on any day it used to matter, i used to care for something that is not even there it's been so hard for me to get out and you are no longer a life without you know it's time for the stories to end go back to bed and sleep all you can
excuse me :X
6:26:00 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
you see, that's why the truth finally shows it's only a matter of time i don't know how far this goes the spotless mannequin finally has a stain just a cut but nothing proves its innocence under the clear blue sky the sentence remains i believed for a moment
excuse me :X
2:57:00 PM
i look at you with pity 'cause you never saw yourself have you ever thought about why i'm treating you this way? oh wait, that's right. how could you have? you're so blinded by yourself that you couldn't see that you've built a wall over the years can i emphasize more that you're the builder? you're giving money to somebody who's gonna take it and fly away far far away and i'm telling myself i would never do that no matter how much pain you made me go through but you don't know that and i'm not doing this because of you you're just a name and status to me, nothing more, thanks to you
excuse me :X
2:53:00 PM
Monday, July 07, 2008
it's been so long now i have forgotten how it was like/like all along nothing was right/right from the start, i've never tried/hide them all away, just remain quiet/tired, nobody wants to know/go to find a place so lost/'cause, you see, these people are not like you/few can actually see/be it sweat or tears/years and fears and time/i'm still writing the same old song/long before another coin was tossed/'cause these were all wrong
no more staring no more wondering what's gonna happen if you start smiling 'cause i can't wait for the end when this is all pretend don't smile when you don't mean it there is always a limit do you even know what you said made it stop and drop dead there's so many things you will never get 'cause you're so full of crap
i could tell you stuff that would seem insane but i wouldn't want to shoot myself in the foot again it's pretty obvious there's something that makes me afraid well, it's the consequence that i hate
so what if i told you there are not one side to this but two would the world stop spinning for you but what i meant to say that day was, are you okay
i know there's no end to this now
excuse me :X
2:59:00 PM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
you know i have the best damn brother in the whole wide world he is so good to me just now i smsed him that i felt sad then he called me from his camp i felt so much better after talking to him whenever he cheers me up, he always never fails to make me laugh he understands me well i feel so lucky to have him as my brother i'm wondering what i did last lifetime to deserve him to be my brother. i feel so much better now! =D
excuse me :X
10:20:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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