went to some area behind fusionpolis with kh & yx the other day. so long didn't meet up with them already. yn couldn't make it because she had to rush some deadline. I've never been to that place before. it's like a whole new world to me. haha. we went to Jimmy Monkey to have brunch. The food was nice. But the place had a very strong greasy atmosphere. The area was nice, but feels attas. haha. then we went to find that cupcake shop yx wanted to see. so hard to find. we walked around holland v for don't know how many thousand times before spotting the tiny shop when we are about to leave. haha. the people must think: what's wrong with these 3 people. keep walking round and round. think very fun is it haha. but i'm glad we finally found it. kh was so nice to treat us a cupcake, though the cupcakes were quite expensive. In my opinion, i think they were overpriced for the taste. yeah, then we went town for a bit and had dinner at lot 1. we talked about some "interesting" topics. haha. we can talk about those things like so happy and natural like that. and so much rubbish. it was really fun. :D:D
had dinner with soulmate at Fish & Co. the other day. it's always fun to spend time with her :D I literally laughed until shoulder pain. I don't know why. First time. haha. and I ate until very full. haha. i feel bad for the baby though. hope he won't be traumatised by her. haha. i felt like bringing the fish on the wall home. haha. it was nice to chillax before facing the next day, with a deadline to meet and test. It's like the whole week is leading up to Thursday. Thursday. Thursday. Thursday.
I had to miss half a lecture to submit the final draft. After submitting I went into the lecture hall. They were doing some survey thing. Then the lecturer said: ok after this I will show you all a short movie then you all can go. Yes, so I went lecture only to warm the seat and watch video. What a lecture. Haha
Later, I had ss test. The questions were more mind blowing than the previous one. I was just happily writing rubbish. Haha
On the bus ride home, i slept as soon as i was able to get a seat. When i realized i was going to reach soon, i tried to keep myself awake so that i wont miss the stop. In a half sleepy state, i got off, thinking i had reached my block. Only after i alighted, then i was like: eh? This is not my block leh. Hahaha! I had alighted one stop early. So its like when the sky turns dark then bu ren lu already. That kind. I thought I'm still not that bad one. Apparently not. Haha
as i'm writing it, i know it's not worth it. But just keep on writing. Every letter I type. All just because I do not want to be who I was yesterday. the sudden jolt of electricity, what was that for? and what is with this fear? I'm afraid it will come out the wrong way.
It's so weird. I suddenly thought of something I said 4 years ago. I will never forget it because according to me, because of what I said, something drastic happened after that. I kept thinking, did I hurt you by saying that? I didn't mean it that way. How was I to know you didn't see that I was joking. I thought you must have known I was just joking with you. How could you have known right. I know.
excuse me :X
9:08:00 AM
Thursday, March 22, 2012
the cab driver this morning was so nice. :))
i bumped into soulmate at the elevator today. i had a few minutes chat with her. it's always so nice to talk to her because can laugh more than actually saying words:))
i went to utown cheers to buy some stuff. i wanted to pay with my blue note because i didn't have any small change. and the cashier lady said: you don't have smaller notes ah? i don't have small change. you pay by nets. i was like: seriously? it's only $3.10 and you want me to pay by nets? it's quite a diao thing. haha. and all along, her face was quite black. i got black faced by this same cashier lady last time. and she said to a girl who just happened to be standing at the entrance: eh hello, can you close the door? yeah sure, because the girl SHOULD be the one to close the door. who is the one working there? even if she want the girl to help close the door, don't need to say it like ordering her around like that. yes, because the whole world owe you. maybe she had a bad day, maybe she's going through some rough time, but still. we are not clients of your crap distribution service. we never suscribe to it.
i met up with a friend whom i haven't met for ages. it was so nice to catch up with her and reminds me so much of our old days. :D it gave me the "peace" i needed today. after being in an environment i don't even know how to describe.
i should be writing more about this. there are so many great people in my life. i don't express it out enough. how wonderful they are. but i always seem to focus on the bad things and amplify them. at the end of the day, these are all i remember. when there a such good things that happened also. but i don't seem to give them enough attention. they should be all that i remember. in the end, i make myself feel as though i had a bad day. when actually, i was just being pa jiao the entire day. haha.
there are some things you know you can do it for now, but you can't do it forever. even if you wanted to, you are not given a choice. yes, i can do this now. but i don't think i can do it forever. if this is how it's going to be, i don't think i can stay here long. but i'll just keep trying for now. what else can i do.
excuse me :X
10:11:00 PM
There is nothing to be curious about. It's just whether to accept what is presented to you as a fact or not. You only wonder because you leave an open space for doubt. You will stop wondering once you accept it.
you will never be as angry with someone else as you are with yourself
excuse me :X
8:18:00 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
I actually wanted to sit down in the stillness of the night to write about some stuff, but ended up having a stomachache marathon. Haha. Yeah anyway, thanks to a friend, who once showed me a quote by this person called Rainer Maria Rilke (such a nice sounding name right haha) I was really impressed by this person. When I went to search for more quotes by him, I was seriously "wowed" by them. And I find them relatable. They are all so wise and have so much meaning and impact. Here are some quotes by him.
Rainer Maria Rilke:
A person isn't who they are during the last conversation you had with them - they're who they've been throughout your whole relationship.
All emotions are pure which gather you and lift you up; that emotion is impure which seizes only one side of your being and so distorts you.
Let life happen to you. Believe me: life is in the right, always.
Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer.
Do not assume that she who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. Her life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, she would never have been able to find these words.
I want to thank all my friends who sent me birthday wishes through fb or texts or whatsapp, my friends and family who helped celebrate my birthday, those who gave me birthday presents. I am really thankful and i really appreciate each and every wish, every thought, every action, every present. Although it may seem short to sum up everything in such a short sentence, i feel happy and am grateful for all of them from the bottom of my heart. As long as i remember how it feels, it's all that matters. :D:D
haha and sure enough, i forgot what i wanted to write about already. the stomachache was too powerful. haha.
where's the line. i feel i'm near the line. any more steps would be crossing it. but maybe, in reality, i'm very far away. it's all just in my head. and no, you don't need to do this. stand up straight on your own.
excuse me :X
9:56:00 PM
Monday, March 05, 2012
excuse me :X
1:08:00 AM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
