I hope you know. I only did what I did, not because I wanted to, but because I don't want to stoop to your level. Trust me, I really didn't want to do it, I was thinking it's really not worth it. and it isn't. But I still did it anyway. It doesn't feel good at all, but I guess it's the right thing to do. It just gets better and better, doesn't it? It's like the more you do, the emptier you become to me. Your substance is getting thinner, and you're soon becoming just an empty shell walking around. You seem more faded to me as a person than when I first met you. You're probably a terrific person. So so very much, I believe it. But I just find it hard to see it now. Actually I have never found it easy to see. I'm so sorry to say. But all these are just my perception of you. You probably have so much more to offer than what I'll ever be able to see. You're probably a very wonderful person, but I'm unable to see you for what you are worth as in the eyes of others.
I think you have no other meaning in my life other than to make me think what I thought about the entire day. In a way, you set it in motion. Otherwise I would have never thought so much about it. It's such a small thing. No way for the life of you will you ever realise it. But I guess everything was already doused with kerosene, and that one thing was the match that set everything on fire. thank you.
"How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours."
--Wayne W. Dyer
excuse me :X
11:37:00 PM
Sunday, May 06, 2012
I had dinner with borats at Medz. It was a simple dinner. Didn't buy much because the price not say very cheap, to us. But the food was good. And we had the annoying rice. It was rice, but smaller. Like mini rice. Don't know why, the texture just feels annoying in the mouth. haha.
I made some tuna tarts. It turned out to be quite dry because I made a mistake. I was supposed to bake the crust by itself first before putting in the filling. I ended up putting the filling in and baking everything together. The crust needed quite some time to bake so in the end the filling became quite dry. And the crust was thick and not fully baked. omg. haha. but my bros said they couldn't tell the dough wasn't baked properly. so okay lor. haha. they don't think so can already. means I can hide something. It's alright. At least I learn now.
My 2nd bro introduced me to this zombie game called the walking dead. There is a tv show of this also. I don't really like to play zombie games because it can be quite gory and scary. but this game was alright because the graphics were quite cartoon-ish, not like doom 3 or fear. Last time my bros ask me to play those I was scared like mad. The graphics were so gory and grotesque I will never touch these kinds of games anymore. And it wasn't just senseless killing of zombies throughout the game. There's like puzzles to solve kind of thing. It's quite fun but there's only the first episode so far. Have to wait for other episodes to come out, which is don't know when. haha
Nobody can be a greater klutz than me. I fell down as I was jogging along the roadside. I don't even know what I tripped over. It was just pavement. The way I tumbled and fell was epic. Luckily it was dark and I think nobody saw. I think I scared the girl whom I approached to ask if there was a nearby convenience store or something to buy plaster, with my bloody knee and all. But then again, I had no money. haha. So I don't know what I was doing. As I was talking to her, my knee was bleeding like mad, a stream of blood went down my leg. I took out my socks to cover the wound to stop the bleeding. Then I called my big bro to come fetch me. This is not the first time I fell down while jogging along roadside. Luckily this time round, my brothers were at home and the car was available. The previous time I fell I had to walk all the way home while trying to cover my bloody knee. And I'm really glad I did not scratch my face, I thought I had, because I couldn't stop my face from hitting the ground. I seem to always fall first on my left knee. Don't know why. Poor left knee. Always suffer the most. haha. A piece of my flesh came out, the cut was quite deep. I don't know why but I was quite fascinated with that. While I was waiting for my big bro to come, I was looking at my wound and wondered where the flesh that got cut off went to. Was it left somewhere on the ground. I left my "legacy" there. haha. I am such a klutz, seriously. haha
I made potato cheese soup. It was okay but my bros said that it was too cheesy. It's called potato cheese soup. haha. I still wanted to put more cheese one. haha. but I think it was still okay because I'm obsessed with cheese. So it's a completely different gauge. haha
My parents are finally back from china after a week. I realised it is actually not that easy to cook and clean every day. Though my bros and I take turn to wash the clothes, but I've been cooking for them for a few days now. Actually only dinner. haha. Since my big bro is on internship and will leave the house early in the morning, my 2nd bro and I's breakfast/lunch just ownself gao dim. haha. But I think its fun to cook. I don't know. Can experiment with new dishes. May or may not turn out well but it's still fun. But I think I will appreciate my mum better now, in terms of meals. Seeing as how it is not as easy as I think to prepare meals. It is so much easier to da bao or eat out, but it's more expensive and less interesting. Since now it's holidays and I STILL have not figured out what to do, just chillaxing, I have all the time in the world to try out new dishes. Now when I think about it, my mum is working and she prepares breakfast and dinner for us every day, must be tiring. Now I can empathise better. I don't know why. My parents have gone overseas without us for so many times but why only this time I can empathise better. Maybe I didn't do much work the previous times. haha. So I guess next time I'll try to help my mum out in the kitchen when I have the time. And also start learning some skills. Every time I want to help my mum with cooking she'll ask me to wash the plates and stuff, said if I want to learn how to cook, must start from the most basic by washing plates. I agree. But I helped out quite a number of times throughout the years and up until now, she still said I must start from basic. So I kept on washing plates and never really got to the real cooking. haha. forever washing plates. I think I also need to learn how to pick vegetables etc. I realised when I'm at the supermarket I had no idea how to pick vegetables, like how to look out for which is fresh or spoiled etc. I know nuts about it. I really just randomly pick one. It's time I start learning. Like at my age and I still don't know about all these, I feel a bit not independent. Must learn some new survival skills. haha
I don't know why but my shoulders are aching like mad. It feels really tensed. I don't know what I'm tensed about. It wasn't tense during exam period. Exams are over and there's nothing to stress about now, so why so tensed. Whyyyyyyyy.
Ever since I fell, I didn't really cook much because there are some cuts on my hands and if I cook, will have to touch a lot of things and keep washing my hands, and the cream will be washed off too. So I just want to let it heal faster and I'll try again when it's healed better.
excuse me :X
1:54:00 AM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
