N.U.M.B that's what i wanna feel i'd rather feel nothing nothing to everything that way,i have to think of nothing nothing at all that's the best of all cause i'm tired ofmany many things cause i have all sorts of confusing feelings when i think back so many regrets so many questions i wish someone could give me the answer the answer to why i've become that wayi kept constantly thinking about it it's like my routine have to think of itevery single day i know i'll never know the answer but just can't help to keep questioning myself looking for possible answers but maybe cause it's meant to be that way but somewhere in my head it's telling me it's something more than fate so what is it? i have a lot of questions to ask but what's the use?no one knows the answer i'm tired of searching for the answer maybe there just isn't any i've taken my life as a prison sentence i live to serve that sentence when i look down at my feet i can see shackles i'm wearing a prison uniformin my prison cell,my days are spent thinking whatever did i do to be stuck in this pit and will i see the end ofthis sentence i know i shouldn't cling on to the past but it's become a part of me it's become a habit i want to look forward but my head just turns the other way even though i know there's nothing behind for a long long time even till i take my last breath every step i take forward my head turns back on its own but sometimes i reproach myself for thinking such things when right in front of me is something i don't think i'll every have in any other lifetime when right behind me is something i smile about that's why i'm so messed up i don't know what to feel this thing call feeling is evil to me right now i've wanted to shut the door but i'll probably rot even faster then i regret and hate myself again stop thinking stop feeling then everything will be alright yeah right...i know i'm confusing i made myself confused tired of understanding sorry is not enough thank you is not enough hate is not enough i don't know what i'm talking
excuse me :X
5:18:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
18
HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
