it's been 4 days since my bro was enlisted in the army i never thought i would miss him that much his absence is very conspicuous but i need to take this as a training cause this is only the beginning as years pass by, he's gonna be home less for whatever reasons he's gonna have his own life, get married and whatso ever i can't really rely on him that much anymore i just really miss my childhood the 3 of us goofing around together those were the happy days one day, my dad asked my how i feel about my bro being in the army i told him i feel like something's missing but i'll get used to it i have to then he said, i think the older you grow, the more things you lose that's what he felt i kinda agree with him, but not totally i lost my childhood, the days when i was really happy it's kinda ironic, like everybody said so when you're young, you can't wait to grow up cause you wanna have your own freedom then when you've grown up, you'd regret that you ever felt that way humans are like that when you have it, you don't treasure it but when it's gone, that's only when you realize its worth but you know, i'm glad it happen all those fun back then, though i would give anything to have them back, but i know it's not possible so all i can do is reminisce about those days it's enough to make me smile and everytime i feel like my life is seedy i just think about the 2 towers standing by my sides in the many photos of the photo album the 2 figures on my left and right in the theatre this is how i comfort myself so you see how much value they have in my eyes in the world of my past, i'm the luckiest girl and oh by the way, speaking of girl the message on the screen inside my dad's car says: wanen is a boy hahaha sometimes i wonder....x)
i don't want to make anything my everything i don't want to rely so much on anything cause when the pillar collapses, or when you wake up from snoozing and realize that the pillar is not there anymore, what are you gonna do? you've become a vegetable, leaning on the pillar all your life your crutches are gone and you're not strong enough to find it so grow some bones in yourself, they can't walk out on you and all these applies to me too
i've always thought of life as a movie a never ending movie cause whoever's up there, is the director and us down here, we're the actors/actresses the only difference from a movie you see in theatres is, we weren't given any scripts you can whine all about it, but you know, the 'people' up there couldn't care less you just live, move on, go whether or not this movie turns out good it's all your 'acting' skills that counts and after we die, somebody takes over and the whole things repeats itself never ending so now you see how much money the 'people' up there are making? lol xp
excuse me :X
6:01:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
18
HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
