i don't want it to repeat 'cause you don't deserve it none of it you won't have to go through any of it like what that bstard did if it turns out to be what i'd expected and then there is the what if it doesn't maybe i should take this jump maybe the rope will snap, like last time and i would fall and break every bone in my body and i would curse till my very last breath then i will wake up, after a long time to be standing on the top of the cliff again but the sky looks different it's my favourite weather, but i don't feel it if i'm gonna jump again i wanna bring along the meaning of it all but there isn't any it never existed so i'm wondering what exactly should i do to let it all just pass like the clouds in the wind save the lightning and thunder does this gurantee me i won't regret? but then again, if i jump this time maybe my bones are not the only ones breaking there is one way that's the best that is to sit here and close my eyes to not see the clouds pass by just let everything be as they are now all that are subtle, so let them be some things are better left unsaid
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ damn right! you will never know what is it that i wanna say! tough luck! hahaha! crazy!
anyway, i'm gonna start cleaning my room da sao chu! or sth like that! i need to find a place to put the electronic keyboard 'cause i need to practise for my guzheng exam weird huh? yeah, one of the section is to test on identifying the notes and i tell you, i suck at it but the weightage is not very high so not that big of a deal but if got easy points to score why not huh? i am excited about cleaning my room but i'm not excited about the exam which is coming in 10 days! !!!!!!! and coincidentally, it's my mum's birthday that day i've been practising for 2 hrs every day better believe it i'm damn hardworking! budden it's no point when in front of the teacher i can't play properly in front of examiner will be worse la! cannot i must find people to watch me play to build my confidence and courage! my mum, as always, will be my audience i always ask her to watch me play whenever exams are nearing this time, i'm gonna ask a few more people like my bros i'm not gonna ask my dad i don't want him to pour cold water on me as he always do however much i play, it's never good enough for him i'm done with him and i couldn't care less about what he thinks
haven't touched any of my hw maybe i will touch them some day in the near future.... haha =)
watch the noose!
excuse me :X
8:24:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
