frustrated beyond believe it's ineffable this is a personal problem that i've been struggling with since forever hate to feel that i've fallen into the same cycle again and it just keeps repeating itself i can't get out i don't know how it's really up to me to change my mentality and perspective it's ruining me tired of being tired but i can't give up i don't want to live like this anymore tried meditation to be at peace with myself but still beating myself up for all sorts of things guess i'm not strong enough this is the root to all of my problems it feels like a meteor shower hitting me everyday and i guess it won't be long till i finally crumble under all the weight of everything i put on myself not the weight of the things the world put on me I put them on myself I chose to carry all these weight it's just very complicated i don't want to crumble so i must change my perspective the world is how you view it but it's as difficult to near impossible but for now i just need to express out it's almost filled to the brim if i don't let it out it will explode i never could believe how much crap i choose to put myself through it's like i like to torture myself that i deserve all these pain it's true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger but i just never learn just keep falling and falling
sounds emo right but it's okay i just need to tell what my heart is screaming
excuse me :X
2:30:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
18
HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
