so we celebrated his birdday today it was a simple affair, just my brothers and i 'cause my parents are still in egypt and they'll come back and celebrate for him another day
anyway there's something i wanted to say This has been a long time coming Have been meaning to say these But just didn’t And I feel that it’s about time say it About how I felt all these years Because I have never said these before And I feel that it’s important that they know about it now For all my life I felt like I’m in this giant shield that is so strong and will never crack No matter what I’m always protected, I’m always safe Because I have my brothers They are my two strong pillars, two bright lights shining on me in my life Giving me warmth, giving me everything that I need And no matter what happens they will be there to help me If I fall they will always be there to cushion my fall They will always be there to dry my tears, make me laugh and everything that makes me happy I feel I am blessed for life because I have the two of them They are my motivation and strength They are really the most wonderful people I have in my life, and because they are my brothers they understand me better and I could tell them everything and anything And they won’t judge me For the countless of times I got lost, they pulled me back on track And made me feel that it ain’t all that bad They make me feel that I can face this big bad world with them always behind me to support my back And for all of these I am very grateful, so very grateful Grateful is too a mediocre word to describe how much I appreciate them It’s immense Although I don’t really express it explicitly But sometimes I do do something nice things for them Those extraordinary times we had when we were growing up As I looked at all the childhood pictures I really miss those times How they always took care of me, how they made me laugh, how they protected me That sometimes they are so nice to me until it made me wanna cry And that’s why they’re so worthy of me to make sacrifices for them because I know they would do the same for me with an blink of an eye my mom always told me how lucky I am to have two older brothers and I knew that all along and she showed us the importance of maintaining good relationships within the family but my relationship with my brothers were not always great I remember when I was younger I did not really like my big brother for don’t know what reason Then suddenly we became very close and were inseparable (in a sense) ever since And I was very close to my 2nd brother when I was very young, we always played together Then not so close Then now we’re close again So now I have great relationships with the both of them, and I’m very happy about it I feel like I must have done something so wonderful in the past lifetime to deserve them in this lifetime Sure we do quarrel sometimes but I can say that they make me laugh more than cry Home is a nice place to come home to because we will entertain each other By ‘arguing’ and doing all sorts of stupid things We are still as childish as ever and we’re proud of it I should really record all the ingenious jokes they crack and all the silly things they do we are not outright nice to one another, like complimenting or things like that but at the end of the day they will do things that show that they care it’s like I ask them to do certain things then they would say no but at the end of the day they would still do it, that kind of thing and they will turn whatever crap I threw at them and turn them into flowers and give them back to me, especially my big bro and sometimes when I’m unhappy with someone and I complain to them about it and I would jokingly ask if they could help me bash the person up and they would say yeah sure. I remember there was this time my big bro said I’ll ask my army gang to bash the person up Hahaha And since they’re older than me, they are more experienced than me And I could ask them for advice and they would also give me some heads up on certain things Sometimes they ‘gang up’ to make fun of me but it was fun And we ‘bicker’ and ‘make fun’ of one another like it’s free We never run out of things to ‘bicker’ and ‘make fun’ of My mum likes to say that if one day my brothers and I don’t ‘bicker’ and ‘make fun’ of each other we would feel uncomfortable like quan shen bu shu fu But at the end of the day we all know that we meant none of those and it was just for entertainment and I’m saying all these because they really deserve to be known as the greatest brothers in the whole wide world they may not be perfect but they’re the ultimate best sometimes when I look at all our childhood pictures I miss them so much that I feel really sad but then I told myself it’s okay because I’m lucky to have had such a wonderful childhood and because today is my 2nd bro’s birthday I shall share this picture of me and him when we were children
okay this is not what it looks like I know my 2nd bro is holding a scissors but obviously he was not the one who bullied me or else why would I cry to him this picture made me feel like the big brother’s instinct to protect his little sister my 2nd brother has a fantastic sense of humour and I can really appreciate his sense of humour maybe because we’re on the same level no actually, he’s a higher level than me but on the same frequency those jokes we crack at home and stupid things we do and he’s really smart, last time I can always ask him questions but now he’s in NS he’s forgotten everything haha and my big bro is as great as well but I shall not elaborate now both my brothers are special in their own ways and I want them to know that I love them very much there’s so much love that they can swim and drown in it but I’ll never tell them this so I’m going to ask them to read this themselves haha because I’m not the kind of person who will tell you how much I appreciate you in your face I’ll let you know some other way But you’ll never hear it coming from my mouth And I think action have more meaning than words And this is the kind of thing that happens in my family We show we care by actions and the little things that we do for each other Things you say can always be a lie, but the things you do really reveals how you feel and I really hope that I was as great a little sister as they were big brothers to me
so yeah, it’s all out I’ve gotten to realize that it’s nice to let the people you care about know how much you care about them So I want my brothers to know this
