my current highlighter was dying soon and I went to search for another one in my drawer. I thought I still had some more, but apparently I don't. Then I remembered that I still had this pack of highlighters given to me by my primary school. So I dug that out. Initially I didn't think it would work because it's been so long already but I just wanted to try my luck. Amazingly, it still works! And it highlighted quite smoothly as though it was brand new, although the colour is a bit old. can tell. I kept the highlighters since 2003, kept telling myself I would have a use for it someday. How many years have that been?! finally I was able to use them and they still work. I was really amazed. haha. so i wrote one whole chunk just about highlighters.
why should I believe in something that is so flimsy. Maybe it's just my point of view. The feelings I've gathered through my observations. They may not reflect the reality. But until I see the golden egg in front of me, I will not hand you the money.
This probably isn't how I'm supposed to react. Intentions and reactions do not match. What I want to say is, after seeing that, you'll never hear me say those words again. You can bet on that.
While I was revising past year papers for eg1413, I came across this passage about genetic enhancement, I think. There was this sentence
"This cheating diminishes us by depriving us of the sense that we must work to make anything worthwhile."
I find it really meaningful (and totally missed the point that I'm supposed to focus on coming up with points for the essay haha) when I saw this sentence, I stopped and pondered over it for a while. seriously. pondering over this in the middle of that. why. I don't know. Maybe I find it quite relate-able to me now. The sense that we must work to make anything worthwhile. It just hits me. That's the point I've been seemingly missing nowadays. Worthwhile. I've given myself too much leeway. Things that come easy will not feel as worthy. It is the essence of working hard and putting in effort that will make any outcome,good or bad, feel worthy. It's like the effort is the cream that fills the cream puff and makes it delicious. It's quite a "duh" thing but I don't know why it suddenly meant so much to me. Maybe because I've fallen off the wagon for don't know how long.
It's better than anything I've encountered. I'd say I take it and run.
If you are so unhappy doing it, then don't do it. who is forcing you? don't need to be so xin ku one. seriously.
I need to realise the gravity of the situation. what is it that I want. what is worth it. and what is not worth it.
I realised when I focus on this, I've completely forgotten what it was that wasted my energy.
excuse me :X
10:52:00 PM
THE OLD FART
Wan En
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HKPS(1999-2004)
Commonwealth Sec (2005-2008)
National JC (2009-2010)
